At age 17 I was arrested and charged with numerous counts of fraud & larceny. They put a $500,000 dollar bail on me. So needless to say I wasnt going anywhere. I was in an adult prison system and it was a real shock to the system. At first I just couldn't believe what had happened, I worried about when I would ever leave the place and thought I was going to be facing some serious time. Well I only ended up getting a year and I served the whole year.
Boy was it an interesting experience. Prior to being sentenced I was amongst a lot of other criminals who had done some serious crimes like murder, armed robbery, etc... I realized how much of a facade that these people put on everyday. They run around like hardened criminals and yet they cry in their bunks every night. I understood that wasn't the lifestyle that I wanted to live and made sure I stayed focused on changing it. I meditated nightly and the other inmates thought I was crazy, because they were bullshitting in there like it was a good time. I seen so many people leave and come back before I was even done with my sentence.
I've come to a point in my life where I realize that people really don't change. They can and anything is possible but they basically don't. It's funny though because when you come from where I come from, it's all the norm. At least it seems that way when you don't have any examples of the way life should be. I'm literally the only person that I know that has completely come out of that lifestyle. Back to the jail story though, it was kind of crazy sometimes and just extremely boring at other times.
I must have planned out about my whole life in that place and since getting out I've actually executed that plan quite well. One of the hardest parts was this girl I was dating, totally lead me on to believe that she would wait for me. First day I got out I found out she was with someone else and it crushed me. I guess what they say is right, time waits for no man and no woman waits for a man with time on his hands.
Well on a positive note since I've been out I started my own business and bought my first home when I was 20. It all wasn't that long ago and I still frequently deal with the issue. Constantly I worry about people that I work with now judging me about my past and maybe this is a way of getting to that next step. I'm allowing the internet to play the role of my psychologist I guess. come again!